Soooooo here goes.
Those of you who have met me know I’m an open book. While I know how to conduct myself in a professional manner when the occasion calls for formal behavior, I am at most times the woman who is completely open, friendly and gracious to all people. Yes, I respect those who do not see eye-to-eye with me. I will even give them hugs! ((()))
Years ago, I was involved in this demimonde under a different name. I was younger, I was insecure (aren’t we all? But especially in our twenties!), I had a solid reputation as an overnight/travel companion. I also had a body that was considered “fit and sexy” by most, but was the result of my eating disorders.
During my time in the demimonde as the “other” name, I experienced a devastating, life-changing event that took its toll on me… I experienced major depression, my eating disorders went in the opposite direction, I went out “partying” every night just to numb myself from my emotions and found just getting out of bed to be difficult.
Did I look like sh?t? Absolutely! I look at pictures from those days and I looked sickly, puffy, worn out and OLD.
Did I gain weight? Yes! And I was too depressed to go out and buy a new wardrobe, resulting in me donning clothes that were a size too small and I looked like…well…just bad.
I took a temporary retirement from this little world until I felt healthier and went through a healing process. I recreated myself as “Lynette Marie” and have had a wonderful time doing so.
Recently, however, the staff at a certain review site discovered that I used to go by another name before becoming “Lynette.” They banned me from their site for a short while, but once I explained my history, I was reinstated as a member.
OUCH!!!!!!!
In reading the old reviews about me before I became Lynette, my heart broke and I felt nauseous. It was apparent how I started out as a very youthful, apparently “fit” young lady (in spite of those eating disorders) and ended up as a tired, puffy, worn out woman.
Once again, OUCH!!!!
But the more I look back at those old reviews, the less painful the “OUCH!” is.
I look back at those days and I am thankful for how far I’ve come…
- I overcame depression
- I overcame my eating disorders
- I learned to accept myself as a flawed human being because WE ARE ALL FLAWED
- I returned to the world of fitness, running four-five half marathons a year along with numerous 10Ks
- I look younger, leaner, stronger and more vibrant (!!)
- Most importantly, I am now comfortable in my skin…in being REAL…and surrounding myself with other open-minded, kind hearted people
So it this too much to share as an escort? Does anyone really care?
My belief is no, this is not too much to share. I am a real human being with real hurts, heartbreaks and hangups. Just like you.
And YES, people care…at least people like you who take the time to read my blog.
I welcome your comments and if you wish to vent your own hurts, please do share.
I thank The Erotic Review for allowing me to post on their site again (mainly sex workers rights issues) and to be a listed and ranked escort. If you are not a member, I recommend checking them out and all that they have to offer to both companions and clients.
Feeling empowered by how far I’ve come,
Lynette Marie
–formerly known as Selena Scott
